When I was 20 I met the most wonderful english man in Germany and ended up living with him for  a year. He was the handyman of the hotel and I was a chambermaid and also a rubbish one at that. I couldn't believe how lucky I was meeting him. We had a pretty great relationship, apart from one thing. He wanted to stay in Germany and I want to leave and explore other places and experiences and wasn't ready to settle for one particular life. I handed my notice in without him knowing and thought he would follow suit, not likely, he was gutted but not that gutted to think about leaving the hotel, where i believe he still works to this day. We went to Turkey together and I was due to leave after that. It was awful, I expected our relationship to kind of carry on overseas, how stupid was I? He phoned me a week after I got back and said it wasnt going to work. I was completley heartbroken. I then did the craziest thing ever, I bought a train ticket and wetn back to Germany. When I got to the staff hotel, I tentatively went up to his room, walked in and he was sitting with another girl, condoms placed near the bed. She left abruptly and I was left with Lenny, who then treated me with complete contempt,ignored me and went to bed, it was one room, I had never felt so awful in my life. I had nowhere to turn, no one to talk to and when he went to work that morning without so much as a goodbye, more like good riddens, I was left having to make my way home to England. I can truly say that I have actually never got over him and what he was like. I'm pretty sure that I was one in  a long line of 'flings' he had when the girls came to work as chambermaids. Im pretty sure he cared about me during the relationship, but love is a powerful word and one that means you love that person unconditionally and wouldn't want to see them hurt in anyway. Sometimes I think it means different things to men that women. I was young, totally in love and he broke my heart. That was in 1992, a lot has happened since then, but I did learn from that relationship that things can be great in a relationship and that is something that I have had, experienced and will cherish.