Its been raining all week and am beginning to wonder whetehr summer is going to pass us by with the odd ray of sunshine and before we know it it will be september. Anyway, life is a bit like that sometimes, it can feel that its raining most of the time, with the odd piece of sunshine, and thats how it has felt for me for many years, without going down that road of whining about my life, having very little money to do things over the years with the children has felt like going on holiday  without any money. Of course we have exhausted the long walks, the picnics, the local parks, the free museums, the paddling pools, anything that doesnt really cost much, but at the end of the day it would be lovley to do somethingelse to have a constant flow of choices. And ultimately the children will not remember the money spent on them, but how much time and attention we lavished on them, I know this, I really do, but I want to take them to far away places, let them see the other side of life, but thats how I feel, they are probably perfectly happy. Things will e different now though, Im starting my job today, a seemingly lowly job, but a job,  a chance to provide and feel that I am contributing to the quality of my childrens lives and nothing can beat that, Im pretty sure that Im going to see the sun a lot more.