Insecurity

I have  always been plagued by a sense of inferiority and being different and I'm not sure why that was. I always felt that my dad always disapproved of me, maybe because I didn't conform enough in terms of behaviour.  this left me with a feeling of not fitting in and that keeping friends was such hard work.  I would often have a friend for a certain time, then they would get fed up, even now I don't really fit in, but I have had counselling and have come to the conclusion that this is the way God made me, just like someone who has been born with a big nose or whatever. I can't do a thing about it, but I just have to keep on believing that I am important and not invisible. That probably sums up how I feel that I am perceived ' invisible'. I know I am important, but in reality I'm not important to other people. But that's okay, I have four amazing children, four amazing siblings, and a couple of friends I can always meet for coffeeif I want to.